COLONOSCOPY – POLYP GARDEN

Fresh from the colonoscopy 2 weeks ago, I received results: two polyps… 

Benign adenomas, precancerous, come back in a year… *Sigh*…

It was disappointing learning of the polyps since it has been only one year since the last colonoscopy and my results were clean then, so I was hoping for a repeat of that. But instead two tiny polyps still sounded alright, I could live with that. They would be biopsied and results would arrive in a few days. So my results today showed the polyps were “benign adenomas”, or precancerous polyps. That is not good, and what the heck does “precancerous polyp” mean anyway?

Polyp Phases

Phases of a polyp

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I’m guessing mine was at “severe dysplasia” stage, as it was benign, yet still precancerous.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Everything I’ve read about adenomas is that it will take between 2-10 years for one to develop into cancer. For a polyp to form and become precancerous within one year tells me that my polyps were under unusual conditions to become precancerous so early. This year has been unusually stressful, and unfortunately I have an unusually poor way of handling stress, ie. I hold it in. I convince myself it could be worse, I can handle it. This explains my “polyp garden” colon and why my resistance to growing these little guys is so low. This also explains why for survivors of colon cancer we have to stay on top of our maintenance exams (scans, colonoscopies, blood tests). I need to stay on top of my tests, I need to manage stress better. I’ve been doing the former exceedingly well, yet there’s more progress to be done on the latter.

In May 2016 my oncologist noted on my CT scan results a spot in my liver that he wanted to watch, and told me to have another scan done in three months. No worries, I thought, it’s too soon after chemo treatments, it must be something else. I did not worry. During the summer we started a new business, had Matt’s daughter and her fiancé move in with us, we had a series of financial difficulties and some personal issues come up all at once. I began losing sleep and obsessing over order in my house, an effort to keep some sort of control over a huge period of change. I (all of us) began feeling overwhelmed and out of control. We all worked from the moment we woke to bedtime every day for months straight with no breaks just to keep ahead of bills. I was on top of everything, I felt I was handling it, but was exhausted all the time. It was a miserable, stressful time for me and my family, and I began to worry about my health. I’d had a tickle in my chest for months. Thinking back about what my oncologist said about the spot in my liver, I could not let go of the fear that cancer had come back and settled in my lungs and my liver. I had no money to get the follow-up scan, and decided it would not hurt to put it off for a month or two until we could figure out our finances.

The fear overwhelmed me and I believed I was sick again. I worried for Matt, my parents, my friends, I dreaded telling them I was going to die. I worried about going through all of the diagnosis, treatments, months of uncertainty and sickness again. If this disease could come back so quickly twice, it must want me; I must be doomed. Things got extremely desperate and I could not shake the fear of not knowing. So I scheduled the scan and results came back clear.

I celebrated the good news, as did everyone around me. I had not made my concerns public, but my family knew. And yet the fear came back. The tickle in my lungs was still there, and I began to wonder how much of my chest the CT scan covered? I had not had a blood test in a while, and realized it was time. I was only a week or so off my schedule, so I scheduled the blood test and met with my oncologist. The blood test came back clear, the oncologist hypothesized that the tickle was coming from a new allergy. Again I felt better, but there was still an insecurity in my mind. No spots in my liver, no sign of disease in my blood,… the colonoscopy should turn out healthy too, right? With all the stress over the summer, what would it take for the cancer to come back? Where would it? After the first occurrence of cancer in 2012, it was only 2 1/2 years until the second occurrence in 2014. It has been about that long again, and I was inconsolably worried.

The colon prep this time around was miserable because I had a cold, too. Ugh… no fun. Coming off of the anesthetic the first thing the GI said to me was he found two small polyps. He did not think they would be problematic, but they would be biopsied all the same. The fact that the results came back precancerous is a red flag that I am not doing enough to manage stress.

The moral of the story is, I’m glad that I am being so closely monitored, that I have great health insurance (thank you Obamacare), I’m glad that at this stage the polyps could be removed with no incident. I am safe again, for now, thank goodness. I will continue practicing stress management, continue getting enough rest, exercise, good nutrition, laughter, and

I will continue with my maintenance exams.

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How polyps are removed, a retractable wire loop severs the neck of the polyp.

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Little bastard

COLONOSCOPY IV

Colonoscopy IV is finished!

For a 2-day prep/recovery, the procedure goes rather quickly. I was in at 8:30am and out by 9:10am.

champagne_toastThe doctor had pleasing news when I woke from twilight: clean as a whistle. No polyps, nothing unusual. Hallelujah! Ever since colon cancer in 2012, part of my maintenance plan is annual colonoscopies and scans. I’m on 4 of 5, so after next year’s exam, I can move out to 1 every 3 years, yet will probably continue the annual scans and quarterly blood tests (also normal maintenance protocol) for five more years.

For a polyp garden (my colon), the crop was bad this year. Nevermind the chemo cleanse I got for 8+ months. So, anyway, I have no worries there.

I feel like an easy patient again!

ANSWERS ARE HARD TO COME BY

2/28/12 Tue. AM

Diagnosis:

Confirmed adenocarcinoma located at junction of rectum & sigmoid. 

I received the diagnosis from the colonoscopy and CT scan yesterday afternoon from my doctor. Still there were missing parts. So, the CT scan will show a blurry version of possible additional locations of cancers, but then there were spots on my liver, which could be nothing or… something!! Until I get a PET scan and ultrasound, I will not know the extent of any metastases. So, darn, I hoped to have answers, but instead more questions came up.

Tests/treatment:

Prepping for PET scan and ultrasound. Should clarify some spots on liver – cysts or masses? I am carbs-only today, then fast for tomorrow. Appointment at 11:15am. Then I will be radioactive for 24 hours! I have to stay away from small children and pregnant people.

Today’s observations:

I still feel fine! Had to get a little creative, as I’m not familiar with a low-carb diet. Did fine, ended up digging into the sardines we inherited from our neighbors (thanks Bill & Lisa!). Matt has developed some strange digestive symptoms. It is difficult to tell if we should be alarmed, as he tends to internalize stress in his gut, but he has been horribly uncomfortable, and has symptoms similar to mine. His colonoscopy this Fri. will hopefully alleviate the worry.

He is endlessly amazed & baffled by my optimism, and tells me so many times a day. He is such a hero how he manages receptionists, insurance and examines the doctors!

Tonight we were to call my parents to discuss their visit this coming weekend. I called at dinner to let them know Matt was late, and they started asking questions that Matt & I hadn’t really discussed yet. I didn’t know what to tell them, but knew they needed to prepare for a long trip! Also, they were worried for their daughter, being so far away. So Matt came back, touched base with some neighbors, and then we called my parents.

In that time, Matt had my parents totally at ease, had presented them with social plans he had just arranged, and was joking and teasing, like he does.

It made my heart so proud to think that:

1) my parents can look forward to their trip,

2) they can be here with me while I’m going through my trials,

3) Matt is bonding with them.

COLON TALK

2/26/12 Sun AM

This morning I set up an online profile on the American Cancer Society website, WhatNext.com, and my first post went like this:

“Whee! I’m on!

Yeah, ‘Oh no‘ is right. What the heck? Ask any of my friends or family and they’ll tell you they are just as surprised as I am about the cancer results. I am 38 years old, healthy as an ox, fabulous lifestyle with good diet, exercise habits and low stress. So, what gives?

All evidence points to genetics. I have a strong family lineage of colon cancer, colitis and IBS, which I am learning all about right now, unfortunately. I am not yet officially diagnosed, by the way, but the colonoscopy results were pretty telling.

It’s 4 days total until my official diagnostic results are available, so my fiancé and I have had lots of time to think and swap stories with others. There seems to be so little attention on colons, and that part of the digestive system; people just don’t talk about it! They are afraid of and embarrassed by their colon/rectal region. Societally, we don’t talk about gas, bowel movements, discomfort, sounds, smells, frequency, etc, etc, you get the idea. It’s all taboo! Why! If more people discussed this incredibly valuable part of our anatomy, wouldn’t there be more education and therefore prevention of cancer and other ailments? YES!

At the beginning of our relationship, my boyfriend (now fiancé) and I were discrete about our colonic behaviors, like everyone else. Over time we just became more accepting and open about our digestion, yet still respectful of each others’ space. If one of us farts, we just open the window and just say, “Good onya, Honey! Get it out!”. And really, better out of ya than in ya, right? This openness and self-observation lead me to eventually get my colonoscopy exam (a whole 15 years earlier than medical recommendation), which turned up a malignant cancerous mass.

Here is an excerpt from an Oregonian article illustrating what makes our society colorectally shy:

“You don’t hear nearly as much about colon cancer as you do about breast cancer or lung cancer or prostate cancer,” he says. “Why? It’s all about the poop. People don’t want to talk about their butts. Have you ever seen a brown ribbon campaign?”

– Jay Lake, cancer survivor, blogger and science fiction writer

“Unfortunately (colon cancer) is a huge source of cancer morbidity, and it gets frightfully little press and is sort of underfunded. I’m not sure why. Maybe because it deals with bowel issues the culture is reticent to discuss. I certainly agree with Jay that there’s not the degree of cultural support, advocacy and marches like you see with breast cancer or prostate cancer.”

– Dr. Kevin Billingsley, the chief of the division of surgical oncology at OHSU 

So there you have it. My advice? Don’t be so afraid or secretive! It only encourages other people to be so, then where are we? A society in denial of a real health problem. All of us have cancer naturally occuring, and our bodies are fighting it off successfully all the time. But when our bodies get overwhelmed, the system breaks down, and the cancer cells get out of control.

Most of us will experience cancer ourselves in our lifetime. Remember, the colon is a PART of our BODY, everybody has one (‘cept for those who had theirs extracted), everybody has problems now and then, but we don’t necessarily know what NORMAL activity is and what’s not normal. I didn’t know that my problems were not normal. I just lived with the discomfort thinking it would naturally pass, as a phase. The same story I heard from my brother and my cousin (who recently had his colon removed from ulcerative colitis infection).

What could I fear? After all, I am young and healthy!”

We think humor needs to be injected into the topic of colon health to encourage people to pay attention to theirs.

NOTIFYING KIN

2/25/12 Sat. am

Yesterday I spent the day talking with friends and family, by email and phone, discussing my thoughts and feelings, and the hard facts about my diagnosis of colon cancer. This will take a lot of time, I can tell. I sent an email out to a list of people who I felt should know. Of course there were a lot of people I missed, so had to keep resending the same message to individuals.

Immediately I got a lot of responses, a few phone calls, probably more messages will be on my cell. I talked to my parents separately in the morning. My parents must be feeling disconnected by the distance (Portland vs LA). What can they do? They took the news pretty well. Matt has been the spokesperson because he greatly skilled at and accustomed to explaining very detailed topics and recalling technical info. He & I presented the news in a way that my parents would feel comfortable that we were handling the next steps as well as possible. Understandably concerned and with a lot of questions, they would have a lot of thinking to do.

All other responses came back eager to help out any way they could, were very surprised by the diagnosis and shared much compassion. That’s where my energy was most spent, and I felt it important to connect with my community to provide reassurance. Matt spent a great deal of time researching all he could find about my diagnosis and the medical system. This is one of his great strengths, as well as a form of coping for him.

By the end of the day, Matt & I were exhausted, emotionally drained. Looking ahead to 2 more days of anticipating the follow-up GI appointment, could time go any slower?

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